Holy crap I am leaving this hospital in 10 days!! I have been here for 7 weeks and I am finally gonna go home :) Life is feeling real good right now.. I guess???
I dont know.. my hubby went home last night and then decided he wasnt coming to see me today. I know I can count the number of times he hasnt come to see me on one hand. I cant help to miss him., I am bored and lonely. None of my nurses are here, there are all these fill in nurses from other units that are weird and annoying.I have felt schlumpy for the past few days, kind of in a "bad mood" like the crazy pregnant girl... As much as I wanna go home I will miss my hospital peeps , the nurses who spend time with me discussing c-sections and dandruff. Or the ones who have tried and tried to teach me to knit. My music therapy girl who sings songs and is writing a song for my baby. My art lady on Mondays and pet therapy on Thursdays. I see my doctors everyday and I dont have to make my bed or do laundry cause they do it all. I strongly believe that this has kept my baby in my belly where he belongs right now. There is so much to do once I leave here and I am unsure if I can do it all, being that I am worn out from hospital bedrest. I mean I havent had any form of exercise since June and trust me the body loses its vigor after lack of use. These things I will deal with, it cant be as difficult as being isolated in a hospital for 2 months. It is truly amazing how our minds can adjust to our surroundings. I sometimes feel a bit anxious but that can be anywhere..lol It starts off with a feeling of breathlessness then the panic sets in and all I have been told is its the "hormones" well after I have Lucas it better go away.
Ok so I had the 32 week sonogram yesterday and even though my doctors ordered a 3 d sonogram the hospital will not do it because I am inpatient, how stupid is that?!? So I was stuck getting a sonogram with an ancient machine, I couldnt hardly tell what I was looking at. She kept saying "here is his nose and chin " and I'm like whatttt?? Where? Ugh it was so frustrating.
This sonogram lady also said Lucas was measuring 34.5 weeks and that his weight is around 5lbs 4ozs which is huggge for his gestation. Dr.Fuentes said he doubts it very highly that weight is accurate?! I just want my boy to be healthy regardless if he is 10lbs or 5 lbs. At one point I hoped he was at least 3lbs when he was born because we feared his prematurity. The tech also reminded me that because I have gestational diabetes it is possible for him to be quite large. I want my son to be born healthy and I will continue to say that. I am so scared for his safety but I assume every Mom has these fears.
Tonight is Project Runway and Housewives of Atl.. cant wait, that will occupy my time and help me go to sleep until the pee monster finds me..UGH I pee 3-4 times a night.Where does all the water come from ?
