O Happy day...

Holy crap I am leaving this hospital in 10 days!! I have been here for 7 weeks and I am finally gonna go home :) Life is feeling real good right now.. I guess???
I dont know.. my hubby went home last night and then decided he wasnt coming to see me today. I know I can count the number of times he hasnt come to see me on one hand. I cant help to miss him., I am bored and lonely. None of my nurses are here, there are all these fill in nurses from other units that are weird and annoying.I have felt schlumpy for the past few days, kind of in a "bad mood" like the crazy pregnant girl... As much as I wanna go home I will miss my hospital peeps , the nurses who spend time with me discussing c-sections and dandruff. Or the ones who have tried and tried to teach me to knit. My music therapy girl who sings songs and is writing a song for my baby. My art lady on Mondays and pet therapy on Thursdays. I see my doctors everyday and I dont have to make my bed or do laundry cause they do it all. I strongly believe that this has kept my baby in my belly where he belongs right now. There is so much to do once I leave here and I am unsure if I can do it all, being that I am worn out from hospital bedrest. I mean I havent had any form of exercise since June and trust me the body loses its vigor after lack of use. These things I will deal with, it cant be as difficult as being isolated in a hospital for 2 months. It is truly amazing how our minds can adjust to our surroundings. I sometimes feel a bit anxious but that can be anywhere..lol It starts off with a feeling of breathlessness then the panic sets in and all I have been told is its the "hormones" well after I have Lucas it better go away.
Ok so I had the 32 week sonogram yesterday and even though my doctors ordered a 3 d sonogram the hospital will not do it because I am inpatient, how stupid is that?!? So I was stuck getting a sonogram with an ancient machine, I couldnt hardly tell what I was looking at. She kept saying "here is his nose and chin " and I'm like whatttt?? Where? Ugh it was so frustrating.
This sonogram lady also said Lucas was measuring 34.5 weeks and that his weight is around 5lbs 4ozs which is huggge for his gestation. Dr.Fuentes said he doubts it very highly that weight is accurate?! I just want my boy to be healthy regardless if he is 10lbs or 5 lbs. At one point I hoped he was at least 3lbs when he was born because we feared his prematurity. The tech also reminded me that because I have gestational diabetes it is possible for him to be quite large. I want my son to be born healthy and I will continue to say that. I am so scared for his safety but I assume every Mom has these fears.
Tonight is Project Runway and Housewives of Atl.. cant wait, that will occupy my time and help me go to sleep until the pee monster finds me..UGH I pee 3-4 times a night.Where does all the water come from ?

32 weeks !!!!!!!! We are finally seeing that light..

Your Pregnancy: Week 32
Up until now, you've been seeing your doctor about once a month. Now you'll start seeing her every two weeks, until the final month when you'll kick it up to once a week. We're not suggesting you have "mommy brain" just yet ... but be sure to write down any questions you want to ask her about the delivery. Things are moving rapidly. You're going to want to be as informed as possible.

Wondering what's up with your body, your baby and your life this week? Read on ...

What You're Thinking:

"I'm either having David Beckham's love child or a future member of the Rockettes."

Your Body
There is something surreal about watching a tiny foot move across your belly (and something uncomfortable about getting jabbed by a tiny elbow in the dead of night). Now that your baby is nice and big and mobile, you'll be getting kicked and prodded in all sorts of unexpected places. Oooof! Did you feel that one in the ribs?

If you're feeling sudden, jerking movements, then your baby probably has the hiccups. Or he could be practicing his routine for So You Think You Can Dance. Changing positions, taking a walk, or drinking a cold glass of water or juice can sometimes get a very active baby to chill with the kidney shots for a while. You could also try telling the baby if he kicks you one more time you're going to come in there and give him a time-out. OK, that won't help ease the discomfort, but mentally it'll make you feel like you're still in control.

You can also take heart in the fact that in a few more weeks, your Karate Kid will be running out of room for the kind of athletic displays he's so fond of these days. In other words, he'll be too cramped in there to haul his foot back 6 or 7 inches to give you a swift kick in the ribs.

Your Baby
Although your baby will still remain active, his days of trying out for Cirque du Soleil are nearly over. About this time your baby will settle into the head-down position in preparation for birth. Other fascinating facts:

Both you and baby are putting on some serious weight at this point. You'll probably gain about a pound a week for the next few weeks, with half of that poundage bulking up baby. He'll likely double his weight in the next eight weeks.

Ever wonder what your baby is doing in there these days? He's busy blinking, looking around, grabbing things, making faces, practicing his breathing, peeing and listening to everything around him—pretty much exactly what he'll be doing for the first three months of his life, sans the adoring audience and the flashing camera.

Your baby may (or may not) have a full head of hair now. If she's a baldy, don't worry. You can always buy a Baby Toupee or some adhesive barrettes.

By the end of this week, your baby will weigh about 4 pounds and measure over 17 inches long—about the length of a hot pair of above-the-knee boots. Christian Louboutin? Manolo Blahnik? We're thinking Isaac Mizrahi for Target—you've got a nursery to furnish!

Your Life
With your appointments becoming increasingly frequent, now's a good time to start tying up some loose ends that might otherwise go, um ... untied.

If you haven't finalized arrangements for your maternity leave, get on the ball. Your boss and human resources will need to know what you're planning to do, and it'll give you some peace of mind knowing it's taken care of.

With all the nursery shopping you've been doing, you may have forgotten another important room that you need to shop for: the bathroom. No, baby doesn't need a welcome basket from Bath & Body Works, but she will need some medicine-cabinet essentials. Stocking up on baby pain relievers, a thermometer, diaper cream and a snot sucker now will save you a 2 AM search for a 24-hour drugstore later.

Another day

It is Thursday and I am so happy this day is half way done... I am getting besides myself times. I cant concentrate, I feel like my mind is racing all the time, I feel so negative. Like all I do is pick of stuff, people..etc..I dont know I am not miserable but why am I always picking on people? Cause their stupid that's why..lol Oh my gawd I am really sick of being pregnant, I love my baby more than the air I breathe and I want nothing more than to hold him in my arms. I am just so nervous that I have come so far and something else will complicate things..Sometimes I feel like I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want this baby so badly that I cant imagine that I will have him soon. And as I sit here and type he is kicking and punching and I wish I could kiss his little hands.
It's like I cant wait, i have done nothing but wait. What will I do when I have no.2? And even with all this stress and drama I am having a no.2..Call me crazy but that is what we have decided on that is what we will have, I have 3 years left to get that done more like two but who's counting??hehehehe
My nurse today is Shiree, she is so sweet. She bought me bamboo knitting needles without my asking, i mean how thoughtful was that? Some people are meant to be nurses, they are blessed with a natural ability to care for other people. God bless her and all the other good nurses out there. Dr.Hill came by yesterday after what seemed like a long hiatus and he blamed his absence on a trip to San Fran, one of my favorite cities ever. He said he went bike riding across the Golden Gate bridge, OMG!! How scary is that? I mean I got vertigo just driving across the dam bridge. Dr.Hill also explained he will schedule my c-section for a week before my due date which will be around October 11.. Or if this little decides to kick me into labor a little early then they will just go ahead and section me as long as I am near 37 weeks, which would make me HAPPY!

Bullsh*t

Today was like started like any other day. I wrapped up some paperwork for my LTD claim. Which is if you ask me is redundant since I have already provided the info like 3 months ago! Anything to make it hard I guess? The American laws and bullshit surrounding maternal fetal care is so ass backwards you would think I was living in Africa somewhere. I get 8 weeks off after I have this baby because I had to use my maternity leave while being on bedrest.So I will be cheated out of time with my newborn and I am so pissed. I am amazed at the system here that deems maternity leave unimportant. The start of a new life is the most important event in a child and mother's life. Yet it is treated as if you just broke your toe and need to be home for a few weeks. No what it means is that I spent 9 months being pregnant and now baby is here and I'm just supposed to him at some stranger in a daycare. How preposterous !! My cousin in Canada meanwhile gets one year off for maternity leave and they also pick up all the hospital bills but yet WE are the greatest country in the world. As much as I love this country sometimes I cant help but think that money is more important than humans here.

Wednesday Actually

I have always found myself attracted to strange films and this one is no different. I recently watched Winter Passing with Zooey Deschanel and my favorite Wil Ferrel and it was the strangest , darkest movie which I enjoyed in that way I enjoyed Gardenstate. The heroine is angst filmed runaway slash actress with weird parents and a disgruntled childhood. She sniffs coke, drinks too much inflicts harm to herself and then finds herself after visiting her recluse father in rural Michigan. She finds him living in the garage and two strangers occupying his house which is being overtaken by books since Dad is a writer. The strangers turn out to be his caretakers, an ex student and an oddball musician, together they all seem to help each other, and with her arrival she finds herself in the midst of her fathers misery, her Mom commited suicide and the father is still reliving the tragedy in his everyday life.. The movie is interesting enough to keep watching however it is not this wonderfully climactic movie and I often dont like those types of movies anyway. I really enjoy watching Zooey her characters are offbeat interesting and introverted kind of like a new Winona Ryder for the 2000's. Will Ferrell is brilliant, I really love him in anything he does.

I can plan ahead cant I?

Since I am imprisoned and cant travel for many reasons I have a list of 80 million things I want to do after I have the baby and have recovered from any physical ailments.. I also dont want the baby traveling too soon because now we have to worry about "swine flu" which is freaking me out totally. One of the things I wanted to do this year was go to New York for our anniversary and spend Thanksgiving there. I planned on staying upstate and just traveling into the city like normal New Yorkers do, maybe even renting a car. Here are a few things I wouldve loved to do while there with my wonderful husband..... One is allowed to dream right?

Tree Lighting at The Rock....Johnnys Reef in City Island, cant wait

Baby size

All of these baby site have differnet estimates of the size of baby at any stage!! iT IS SO CONFUSING...I have no clue how big my baby is right bow because 3 weeks ago according to the sonogram he was like almost 3 lbs and if he is gaining 6 oz a week then he has to be at least 4 lbs? Weird..Oh well i will get another one next week and hopefully this time my doctor is doing it and not some US tech straight from school. That girl was such a jerk, FL HOSPITAL ORLANDO has a jerk of an US tech she was horrible.I wish I knew her name..

Week 31

31 Weeks Pregnant

Pregnancy Body Changes at 31 Weeks Pregnant

At 31 weeks pregnant, the waiting (and sometimes anxiety) begins. You’re a few short weeks away from giving birth, and may be having mixed emotions. This is completely normal, especially for a first timer. Talk about it with your care provider if you feel especially overwhelmed.

You'll need additional stores of iron during the third trimester to help build your baby's oxygen supply. The best sources are dark green, leafy vegetables, as well as lean red meat, dried beans, and dried fruits.

It's also important to drink at least eight 8 oz. glasses of fluids each day. Fluids are essential for building new cells, maintaining increased blood volume, and decreasing water retention.

At this late stage of your pregnancy and with your belly being the size it is, you may find yourself spending many hours awake at night as you battle to find a comfortable position for you to sleep in.

Pregnancy body pillows are a godsend, they realign your body and give you and your tummy extra support exactly where you need it. You may find yourself using it long after pregnancy, they are a great product for helping to avoid those morning aches and pains.

Some more tips to help you sleep :

* Go to bed and wake up at the same time everyday.
* Don't drink to much fluid at night, or you will be in the bathroom the whole night.
* Avoid any caffeine after 2 p.m..

Your Baby’s Growth at 31 weeks pregnant

Your baby is entering a growth spurt. For the next eight weeks, he'll gain weight faster than he increases in length, at the rate of about half a pound a week. The bigger he gets, the harder it will be to "see" him on ultrasound and get a good estimate of his size--the margin of error increases to 15 percent by the end of the third trimester.

He's definitely growing fast, and you'll notice that his kicks will start to feel more like squirming as he runs out of room to roam. Your baby will be weighing in at around 3 1/2 pounds and measures nearly 14 1/2 inches from head to toe.

Your baby's growth weight may begin to slow down a little now, but although it is slowing down the internal organs will continue to grow and develop.

31 and counting.........lol

I am finally 31 weeks !!! Holy cow how did this happen, is it a dream? Am I dreaming? Is this little one still inside me growing and playing and kicking? Is he discovering new things because his eyes can now open? Is he recognizing Dad's voice and the end of the day? OOH my little one I cant wait to see you , your big brown eyes and your little toes , will you have Mommy's chubby cheeks? or Daddy's nose? I cannot imagine any thing as wonderful as being a Mom and helping your child grow. My heart aches for your sister that we lost but my faith has been restored with you, It wouldve been her third birthday a few weeks ago. I wish she could be here too with you but I wont stop I will go on and I will enjoy every moment I can spend with you. My beautiful son I love you..

Article From Sidelines ..for those of us on BEDREST!!

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BED RESTS SILVER LINING:
15 BENEFITS OF TAKING PREGNANCY LYING DOWN

By Laurie Krauth

How often do the one in five pregnant women assigned to bed rest get to brag about the experience? Yet here we lie, accumulating perks unknown to our mobile counterparts. So heres a reminder to horizontal pregnant women, and a lesson to our vertical sisters, about just 15 of the benefits Ive accrued in taking pregnancy lying down.

1. My husband has learned to cook. And not just in the microwave.

2. He can run the house. (He no longer puts the first load of wash in the machine and leaves it to mold. He regularly fills--and empties--the dishwasher, notices when were out of milk, creates a shopping list, hits more than one store to get the goods, buys in bulk and looks out for sales.)

3. I am amassing a quantity of sleep-time that I wont see again until my baby is 2.

4. I am tearing through novels, mastering (in theory) the football hold for breastfeeding and gossiping with friends with a laziness that my baby wont permit again until preschool.

5. Im losing my type A-ness&is it possible? Before this bed rest thing, I couldnt talk on the phone or have a friend over without also cooking or filing papers.

6. My old definition of a top-flight evening--one spent eviscerating eight items on my to-do listhas been replaced by one spent watching two videos with my husband.

7. I can stare aimlessly into space (without mentally adding tasks to said to-do list).

8. My athletic virtuosity no longer depends upon at least one sweaty set of tennis, three jogs and a night of swing dancing a week. Tackling the stairs now makes me proud..

9. Lying on the couch in the living room (aka Bed Rest Central), I savor sightings of cardinals and chubby snowflakes. Gone is the muttering about barren, skinny trees and steel gray sky. This is a cornucopia of earthly delights compared with the medical building that stared back at me from the hospital bed I occupied the other week (and could occupy again any time).

10. I relish my babys increasingly zealous kick-boxing because I know hes well and happy, and that matters more than anything.

11. Forget any worries that my new husband loves me conditionallyfor the sex, or how I take care of business around the house, for my fanatical energy, or for my lithe body. These are a distant memory and still he treats me like his bride.

12. No doubts left about how hell handle Real Life with me. As our honeymoon giddiness has been replaced by his holding me from 3 to 5 a.m. while I await crisis-level bleeding, as well as preparing my meals and cleaning up after me, weve cruised seamlessly through a decades worth of marital developmental stages in less than a year.

13. Improbably, he still makes me feel like a honeymooner, despite my girth, exhaustion and periodic fear. Curling up together on Bed Rest Central beats a night at a Parisian café with a new lover. I feel this exquisite bittersweet appreciation of each moment we spend together thats intensified by the knowledge that a hospital bed may beckon at any moment.

14. I am finally ready to have my baby. All this lying around finally put a stop to my obsessive worries about handling the transition to motherhood, leaving in its wake the searing desire to get on with toughening up my nipples and changing diapers for the kick-boxer Im carrying.

15. Im actually looking forward to being liberated by childbirth. While my fellow expectant mothers anticipate losing mobility and independence, I cant wait to be off bed rest and carry my baby and his hundreds of accoutrements through the house and out into the world. Ill be free!

If only I could remodel my kitchen it would look like....

THIS! I love this kitchen, its clean clutter free and fresh!

More Baby Cashmere ...love it

Baby Cashmere

OMG!! I am in love with baby cashmere, what could feel better against baby's soft precious skin? I plan on dressing Lucas in some cashmere during the winter months here in Florida. I found a few pieces on line that were fairly reasonable...Hope you like

Kids Line Willow crib set

Lucas's crib and gear

So we ordered the crib and waiting on the travel system . I chose a white crib because I feel like it is suited for my baby. I mean I love dark woods but I feel like its so grown up for my little one. I want him to be bright and happy and joyous in his bed. I love bright rooms and ours is sometimes lacking the brightness since its towards the backyard and the trees often hide the sunshine.
Baby is rooming with Mom and Dad until we can buy a bigger house. I honestly am in no rush he can stay in our room as long as he wants! Besides the intimacy issue I will love having him so close by and since I plan on breastfeeding it is more convenient. I also found the cutest crib set that I will be using. My sister got me a nautical themed one which I will use in the winter time, its seems suited for the winter. I dont want to be stuck using one crib set like other people are.

Did someone say ribeye?

I guess I am a carnivore but hey protein is good for the baby!!

What happens after gestational diabetes?

Everything yummy is off limits right now and being pregnant and haveing cravings doesnt help, here is yummy mushroom swiss burger I will indulge in once I am free...lol

30 weeks 4 days and still counting....

My boy is getting bigger with each day he remains inside my belly. My love for him is unimaginable, I am in love with my son. I want to hold him kiss him smell him, love him and watch him grow. The days spent in this hospital will not go in vain. I promise to take advantage of all them time spend outside these walls. His Dad is so anxious to finally get to the delivery day as we all are.
I have gestational diabetes and it is no fun. My diet is so out of whack and I feel like I am totally starving. I have been told that baby isnt affected greatly by this change. I eat less carbs more protein and I take vitamins and supplements to make up for what is missing. I cant wait to leave this place so I can eat a fat steak and some cake! For Lucas I will make the sacrifice.
James has decided if I am gonna cheat then its limited to once a week, he is in control of this because I cant leave my room therefore if I want a cookie he has to bring it for me. I think pregant women with gestational diabetes suffer alot because at the time in our lives when we dont care about weight gain we are constantly reminded of our diets and what we are eating. It is so frustrating but it's not forever. Que sera - sera...

At 30 weeks pregnant stage, you are in the middle of your third trimester or in the 8th month of your pregnancy. So you have only 9 or 10 more weeks to go before the delivery or child birth. As you are in the final stages of pregnancy, you will become very restless and start feeling that the wait seems endless. This is the time when you must relax and rest. Find some time with your partner or spouse and plan and discuss the forthcoming events of delivery, childbirth and baby care. Try finishing projects which you’ve been planning since long. After the baby comes, you will be very busy with the baby, feeding the baby, changing diapers and nappies and so on. You have gained lot of weight and are gaining much more at the rate of about 1 pound per week. You may start feeling that you are becoming slow and clumsy. At 30 weeks pregnant stage you might be feeling quite tired and exhausted, so rest and relaxation are of great importance now.

You can increase your body stamina and energy levels by indulging in light exercises. The exercises should be done gradually, it is advisable that one does not overdo anything. Daily walks, breathing exercises, light workouts, stretching and swimming for short distances will make you feel better and help in coping with pregnancy related issues and problems. This is the best time to prepare your body for the upcoming event of labor, you can use the Braxton Hicks contractions for getting used to labor pains. The baby is putting on weight at this stage and growing quite steadily.

Baby’s Development

At 30 weeks pregnant stage, the baby’s approximate weight is about 1.5 kg or 3 pounds and approximate length from head to toe is about 14 to 17 inches or 36 to 38 cms. The baby becomes quite sensitive to the surroundings and is aware of the happenings around. The baby starts having definite sleep and waking patterns and the expectant mother is able to identify these. The baby’s and mothers sleep cycles need not necessarily match. The baby has become so big by now, that it is occupying nearly the entire uterine cavity. The baby moves and plays quite vigorously now. When the baby is not moving, it will generally be in a sitting position with the head in upward direction. Now is the time, when the baby starts positioning itself for exit by easing and resting the head on mother’s pelvic bones.

The baby’s brain is developing very fast during this period. The brain trains the eyes for opening and lungs for breathing. The baby is able to see the happenings in the uterus and can differentiate light and darkness and is capable of tracking a light source. The baby reacts to outer lights. The baby has fully grown eyelashes and eyebrows at this stage. The baby is adding on fat and gaining weight. The baby’s lengthwise growth may slow down now. Baby has fully developed and functional digestive tract and lungs during the 30 weeks pregnant stage.